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Coming up on Paratruth re Born, I'll be talking to
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Kelly Ann Street about her book Embrace the Dark.
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Welcome well, do Parah Truth True.
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Welcome Paratruthers to another episode of Paratruth Reborn. My name
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is Justin and I'm very excited today to welcome Kelly
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Ann Street to the show. Kelly, Welcome to Paratruth be Born.
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Hi, thank you so much for having me.
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Absolutely. So, I've been doing this a lot where I'm
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getting people on to talk about your shadow self, and
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I'm starting to really wonder if my shadow self is
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trying to get me to bay attentionon. So, before we
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get into the book, what made you want to start
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on this work work and write the book.
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Yeah, it's sort of one of those things where was
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it something that chose me or did I choose it?
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Or was it something that chose me? Almost like I
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think you doing all of these shows on shadow work,
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is that's something that's really showing up for you and
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kind of hitting you in the face with itself. And
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so I think I think that's that's really why I
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came to the book, is I was I was doing
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my own shadow work. I was seeing it in my clients.
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I was in this space where I finally had the
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a little bit of a little bit of space, I
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will say again, to go into shadow and to really
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spend some time with all of the things that I
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maybe hadn't dealt with or hadn't dealt deeply enough with,
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and it was time for me to process them for myself.
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And in doing that, I realized that I had all
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of these tools that I wanted to use for myself
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but then also share with other people to go into
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their shadow.
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Okay, now the name of the book is Embrace the Dark.
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What does that truly mean? To embrace the dark?
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Yeah, so I think embrace the dark to me means
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that it's something to be less afraid of. I like
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the idea of embrace as accept as to bring in,
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as to welcome in, and to me, I think part
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of the thing that I want to get a message
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that I want to get out to people is that
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the dark is not necessarily scary, it's not necessarily evil,
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it's not necessarily bad. And so if we can welcome
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in by embracing what we think of as the dark
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as the shadow, then maybe we can soften into it.
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Maybe we can be a little bit more present with
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ourselves and the things that have been uncomfortable or hard
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or difficult in our lives.
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Okay, Now, a lot of people hear shadow and they think,
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you know, evil, they think bad. Why do so many
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people fear their own shadow? Is it just because we're
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kind of predisposed to hear shadow or darkness and think
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not good?
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Yeah?
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I think so. I think there's a lot of history
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around whether it's you know, religious trauma and in that
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sort of thing, but there's a lot of history around
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the dark or shadow being bad, being scary, being evil,
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and those messages continue today. That's, you know, that's why
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we're here. And yet I think part of what it
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is in our modern world why the shadow still feels
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so scary is that it's the unknown. It's it is
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the shadow. It is the dark for a reason because
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it's not something we're either yet aware of, or it's
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not something that we have fully processed and brought to
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light and come to terms with. Or Another reason why
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we often think of the shadow as evil is or
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bad or scary is that our shadow is stuff that
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we've been rejected for or been told is unacceptable about ourselves.
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In the past, and when you've been rejected or hurt
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because of a part of your personality and then you
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need to face that or want to integrate that back
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into yourself. That's a really frightening part prospect.
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Now, we asked, we did a poll and asked our
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paratruthers have you ever experienced a dark knight of the soul?
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And one hundred percent of them said not sure what
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that is? So what is the dark knight of the soul?
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Yeah? So is it? Okay? If I give like a
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little bit of a history lesson here U? Yeah, fabulous, Okay,
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So I feel like you can't explain what a dark
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knight of the soul is without knowing its origin. So
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in the fifteen hundreds, there was a Carmelite monk named
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Saint John of the Cross, and Saint John of the Cross,
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like many you know, monks and religious figures during that time,
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was persecuted for his very particular brand of Christianity. His
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type of Christianity was some for some reason outlawed, not
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allowed during during that time, and he was put in prison.
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And so while Saint John of the Cross was in prison,
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I think he was an maybe necessarily Saint John of
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the Cross then, but he was put in prison. And
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while he was in this prison cell with you know,
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stone walls, cold, no food, you know, very little food,
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very little water, all he had was his mind. And
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while he was in that prison cell, he was thinking,
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you know, why is my God not here saving me?
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Like I'm I'm in prison for my beliefs and I'm
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not I'm alone. I don't feel a connection to God.
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And he started writing this poem that later became known
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as the Dark Knight of the Soul. And so he
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writes this poem, but he doesn't have pen, he doesn't
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have paper, he doesn't have anything to actually write it
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down on. So he just repeats the poem over and
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over and over in his head. And then when he
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does get out of prison, eventually he writes the poem
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down and he wrote a whole book explaining what the
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poem was about. And really the heart of the poem
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and his experience and a dark Knight of the Soul
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is a sense of complete and utter abandonment of your
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your soul being lost being you know, you don't have
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any anything to hold on to, there's nothing tangible to feel.
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And I think when we've when we've gone through an
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experience in our lives where you're just you know, you're
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going about your day. You have a connection to something
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greater than yourself or some meaning in your life. It
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doesn't even have to be religious or or religion. I'm
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not particularly religious myself, but when you have a connection
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to something other than yourself, something greater, or even a
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connection in with yourself, and then that goes away, you
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you lose your meaning through losing your faith in something,
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losing a relationship, losing a job or a career, and
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all of a sudden, what you these walls that you
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have built around yourself of meaning of who you are
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go away. That is a dark knight of the soul.
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Okay, well, I'm glad you kind of gave that history
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because I literally had to look this up before we
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got on today because I had never heard of it either,
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So it didn't surprise me that our listeners didn't either.
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But yeah, that's fascinating, especially like he was able to
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not just become in touch with his spiritual self, but
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got down into his own psyche because he was just alone.
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Yeah, yeah, absolutely, you know, a dark height of the
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soul really brings you to your knees and has you
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question everything you think about yourself, everything you might think
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about the world. And from that place that to me
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like that is embraced the dark. That you get to
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that place you're on your knees, you don't know where
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to turn or what to do, and from that place
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is where you rebuild and where you reconnect and get
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to know yourself and love yourself, hopefully a little bit
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more deeply.
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I feel I've had a lot of those, So I
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think maybe it's time to do some chef work and
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rebuild myself. Yeah. Now, how can pain actually become a
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tool for healings of something to escape or even just
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not letting go of it?
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Yeah, it's I think. You know, it's interesting you say pain,
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and I know we're probably you're probably meaning emotional pain,
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and that is definitely, you know, one one aspect, one
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version of it. But I will say immediately I went
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this idea of physical pain, and so I want to
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speak to that a little bit because a lot of
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my work with people and with myself is in the
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body and in somatics, and so whether it is physical
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pain or emotional pain, that pain is a clue that
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pain tells you something is not right here, something is off,
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something is happening that we need to address. And so
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you know, if it's I'll just say, if it's physical pain,
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and whether you know you're you're having consistent lower back
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issues or you know your shoulder has really been bothering you,
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and you know it's maybe not just from you know,
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playing too much pickleball or whatever it is, and you
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can tune into and just maybe close your eyes and
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go in to that part of your body wherever you're
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feeling that physical pain and just ask yourself or ask
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the pain, what do you need me to know right now?
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And you can do that with your physical body, but
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you can also do that with your emotions. And so
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when you're feeling grief or sadness or jealousy. Jealousy is
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a big one that I really like to work with
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with people, as well as anger. And when you're feeling
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those emotional pain points, you can use that as a
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queue to turn back into yourself and just quietly ask
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the question, what do you need me to know right now.
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Now? A lot of people, like I said, they hear shadow,
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they get worried, but what is like the biggest misconception
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people have about shadow work when you're when you're talking to.
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Them, Yeah, I think maybe that you also have to
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get really like dark, or that you have to be
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in a really bad place maybe to work with your shadow.
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I think sometimes it's when I'm in a in a
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you know, good or a more balanced place, that I'm
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actually able to access more shadow because I have a
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deeper level of self compassion and trust within myself, rather
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than necessarily if I'm if I'm not in a place
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of grief or of loss, and yet I have some
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uncomfortable feelings that are coming up. For instance, I love
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to gay examples. And for instance, today actually with one
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of my clients, what came up was really talking about
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comparing themselves to other people in their industry on social media.
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And so this client is an esthetician. I happen to know,
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she's like an incredible, incredible esthetician who you know, works
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with people's skin and is really skilled at her work.
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And yet she's seeing that other people are posting about
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stuff they do online and they're talking about their career
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and they're getting a lot of ego boost and platitudes
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for it. And so she's you know, looking at all
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this social media and she's just feeling crap about herself.
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And from that place where she's looking at others, she's
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seeing all of this comparison. Maybe she's not, you know,
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in the darkest spot. Maybe she's not you know, she's
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not feeling this complete sense of loss or abandonment. She's
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just kind of not feeling great about herself. From that
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place is where you can bring in samples of shadow work,
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where you can start to dig in a little bit
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and just kind of dip your toe in, so to speak.
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Okay, something that I think is really fascinating in the book,
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as you talk about seven areas of life, can you
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talk about what the seven areas of life are and
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what the what hits hardest for most people.
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Yeah. So the Seven Areas of Life is based on
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the concept of a wheel of life, and that was
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a development tool developed in around the seventies by a
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guy named Paul Meyer. And he created the Wheel of
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Life as this way to create a visual wheel, a
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visual concept of the areas of your life that feel
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imbalance and feel out of balance. And so when I
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was working with the idea of writing a book about
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the shadow and how to help people heal through it.
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I would. I turned to this tool that I've used
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with my clients, I've used with companies that I've worked with,
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I've used in my own personal development, and I gave
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it a little twist by creating it as an acronym,
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which I just I love to make things that are
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easy and simple tools for people to remember. So my
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wheel of life is embrace. It is oh my gosh,
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you know what. I'm gonna be honest with your listeners here.
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This is a This is a real moment of life
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honesty and transparency. I will admit as a I have
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a four month old postpartum that my brain just does
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not work as well as it used to, and my
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memory and recall are not amazing. So a moment of honesty, transparency,
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and some embarrassment showing up. But I'm going to turn
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to my book and read vacronym. So my areas of
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life are embodiment and so that is of course our
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physical body, and then meaning the way you connect with
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something bigger than yourself, becoming, which is really personal development
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and growth relationships and this is romantic friendship and familial abundance,
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our relationship with money, calling the thing that we choose
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to do in our life that gives us purpose. So
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I would say for you, it's probably this podcast and